Hello! Long time, no see!
I sort of forgot to keep posting about my time on exchange... that's my bad, y'all. Things got so hectic! Clearly, I survived my time abroad -- or else I wouldn't be here posting -- and it was a very rewarding experience where I learned a lot about myself.
I will forever thank my lucky stars for the experience, even with all the ups and downs of being away from home. I definitely came back with more confidence and a renewed sense of purpose. Sorta.
Anyways.
Fast forward to 2019! And what a year it was. I went out for coffee with one of my close friends in early 2020 and when I joked about all the difficulties of 2019, she looked me in the eyes and said, very genuinely, "It really was rough, huh." And I guess it was. I tend to brush these things off with jokes, but I'm working to really work through the pain and issues that arise instead of pushing them down. I got my heart broken (a couple of times) but I also was filled with love too: the love from friends and family.
Getting your heart broken is an interesting experience. Because you have to let yourself be vulnerable and open to the possibilities of something more...and then sometimes it doesn't work out? And all those hopes you had for the future suddenly vanish? Huh. Weird, right?
But here's the other thing, I wouldn't change a thing about 2019 (okay, maybe a couple of things here and there), but through all that hurt, I learned a lot about who I am and what I want in life. And don't get me wrong, you don't have to make a lesson out of everything that happens to you, some things are allowed to just suck. But these were certainly lessons. I can't fully explain what they are even now, but the general gist is that other people can't determine your worth.
Love yourselves, y'all. Love yourselves with unbridled passion. Because you'll be in your body for the rest of your life. It's most definitely okay to have days when you don't. We are, after all, only human.
(I also finished university in 2019 -- I told you it was a year.)
song title inspo: https://open.spotify.com/track/5nQnFMl9mwkkBNVF9HmEZ7?si=Qr8YBWs5QPKP7s-6EP4-SA
I sort of forgot to keep posting about my time on exchange... that's my bad, y'all. Things got so hectic! Clearly, I survived my time abroad -- or else I wouldn't be here posting -- and it was a very rewarding experience where I learned a lot about myself.
I will forever thank my lucky stars for the experience, even with all the ups and downs of being away from home. I definitely came back with more confidence and a renewed sense of purpose. Sorta.
Anyways.
Fast forward to 2019! And what a year it was. I went out for coffee with one of my close friends in early 2020 and when I joked about all the difficulties of 2019, she looked me in the eyes and said, very genuinely, "It really was rough, huh." And I guess it was. I tend to brush these things off with jokes, but I'm working to really work through the pain and issues that arise instead of pushing them down. I got my heart broken (a couple of times) but I also was filled with love too: the love from friends and family.
Getting your heart broken is an interesting experience. Because you have to let yourself be vulnerable and open to the possibilities of something more...and then sometimes it doesn't work out? And all those hopes you had for the future suddenly vanish? Huh. Weird, right?
But here's the other thing, I wouldn't change a thing about 2019 (okay, maybe a couple of things here and there), but through all that hurt, I learned a lot about who I am and what I want in life. And don't get me wrong, you don't have to make a lesson out of everything that happens to you, some things are allowed to just suck. But these were certainly lessons. I can't fully explain what they are even now, but the general gist is that other people can't determine your worth.
Love yourselves, y'all. Love yourselves with unbridled passion. Because you'll be in your body for the rest of your life. It's most definitely okay to have days when you don't. We are, after all, only human.
(I also finished university in 2019 -- I told you it was a year.)
song title inspo: https://open.spotify.com/track/5nQnFMl9mwkkBNVF9HmEZ7?si=Qr8YBWs5QPKP7s-6EP4-SA
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